i want to be alone… forever
celebrated my 21st birthday few days back. was happy to see my frenz celebratin it with me… however deep down inside i felt sad… depressed… very depressed…. cant seem to be myself, the cheerful, bringin laughter to other pple lives….
where m i?
the real me…
im lost… lost in this complicated world…
dun worry abt me ppl, i will be fine… will be.. i cant promise u wen will tat be but hopefully it wont take long. pls i wont need any advice or any form of comfort from u all. im aware tat all of u are concerned abt me. i juz need to be alone.. for a while i hope. alone…. if u noe me well u will noe i will be back on my feet one day. dun ask me wen will tat be coz i dunnoe. wat i noe is this time rd i might take a longer time. a longer time than before to recover.. a longer time…. a much longer time…..
hopefully i will put on a smile back onto my face soon n bring laughter to all of u, my frenz… meanwhile take good care of urself.
September 7th, 2005 at 7:51 am
gal..i noe u might be abit surprise to see me writing a msg to you..
i juz wan to let you to noe.. that.. although.. you are really into finding your own self .. in this.. world..
it is important that.. you..dont push away those.. who care and concern about you… coz.. they are the ones that will help you in standing back up again..
and .. always.. look at the brighter.. side.. and never lose hope in life.. worz..
if you dont want to stand.. you wont … stand up…
hope that you wouldnt mind.. spending 1 or 2 minutes… reading this msg..
do take care always..
life tough.. live it.. =P
may God bless you with comfort and strength..through out this tough times..
Yy
September 8th, 2005 at 7:46 am
im not pushin them away… juz tat my character dun like pple to tok to me wen i want to tink thru things. i now frenz are the ones who bring my usual self back. thanks.
September 12th, 2005 at 7:57 pm
Cheer Up Gal… Things might not be that worse for u… Give whatever happening around you the benefit of the doubts. Concentrate on something which means a lot to u now eg. yr work.. Let nature takes it course and cool down k… Cheers…
September 16th, 2005 at 8:06 am
its not tat i never give those things happening ard me e benefit of doubts… i do stand in e other person’s shoes but i still need tat person to tell in my face.. do u noe hw it feels wen u dun wish to ve hope, however u cant help it s u r uncertain. sometimes tellin someone e truth fast will help end his/her sorrows soon… waitin is not a nice thing… n wen ur heart n mind is not clear will u be able to concentrate on ur wrk? its not tat easy n i guess u noe it too… i know sometimes smth is best to b left unsaid, to me i wish tat truth will be told to me coz im not tat strong as wat u all see me as. lastly, does tat person ever tink abt my feelings? if tat person does, things will not turn out lk tat. i know others have their problems too but being selfish wont help solve e problems. i know its difficult to ask e whole world to be selfless at least i wish my frenz r like tat….
let me know e truth even thou it might hurt me forever
i wld rather bear e pain than live my life in a world of uncertainties, disappointment and wishin for hopes tat will never come true….