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HELLO ppl! muz be wonderin which planet i disappear to for the past ten months rite? kekeke… Last entry was in March’06 after tat as usual was busy with work. Gotta make sure all my things are well done before i go for my ankle ligament reconstruction operation which took place on 16th May’06.

After the operation, i had a cast on my right leg for abt a month. Had to use crutches to move abt coz cant weight bear on my operated leg. Didnt knew tat usin crutches was tat tirin to my arms as well as to my left leg. As i need to clean my wound, i gotta go to the clinic near my house. Normally, the walk is nothing to me as i have to walk outside to the bus stop to go to work. However, usin crutches to ‘walk’ to the clinic was a torture for me. The moment i stepped out of my house i faced the 1st obstacle, lockin the door. Usually one juz stepped out n pulled e door closed along the way. With my two hands holdin on to the crutches i cant do so, gotta pull the door close inch by inch as i move step by step out of the house.

Took the lift down and started my journey to the clinic. Whenever i came across a step, be it goin up or comin down, i always feared tat i will fall down. If i were to avoid all the steps, i will have to go the long way and the distance increases. From the lift lobby of my block to the next block, my arms n left leg started to ache. Takin the short cut i gotta cut through few roads and carpark. So afraid tat a vehicle will juz popped up from nowhere. Every now and then i need to stop n rest a while. Started to perspire and breathe more faster, ok i know its been a long time since i exercise…

Reached the last block of flats but faced another obstacle.Either i go down a flight of steps or go down a slopin path. I chose the latter and found tat it was not tat easy esp if i were to lose my balance i could juz fall forward. Next was crossin the main road, had to take bigger steps as the timing for traffic light crossin is quite short. Few times the drivers were quite nice to wait for me to cross before they drive past. Once an inconsiderate driver juz drove right in front of me though i was still crossin the road, almost had a fall.

Reached the other side of the road safely. Climbed up a slopin path to the clinic and met with yet another obstacle. The door to the clinic is quite heavy even more so when i’m standin on one leg. At times other patients in the clinic will help or the clinic assistant, other times i will have to open the door myself. The feelin of helplessness juz caught me by surprise as I didnt expect tat it could be tat difficult. Now i truly understand how disabled ppl feel.

Most of the time while i was recuperatin, i spent it at home. So tempted to go out to the shoppin centres or juz downstairs my block. Cant do much at home too. Even gettin a glass of water is difficult. Have i mentioned abt showerin? Hahaha.. thinkin of it juz make me laugh. I cant possibly balance on one leg for long hence i had to place two plastic chairs in the bathroom. Gotta search for big plastic bag to cover up my cast to prevent it from gettin wet. Next i need to place my chairs strategically( wah as if im planinn a battle), one for me to sit on & the other for my right leg. I cant possibly hold up my casted leg while im bathin as it quite heavy. Luckily the shower head was long enough for me to pull. Shampoo, shower foam, facial wash and toothbrush & paste gotta placed them within reach. As the bathroom floor are always wet, i need to be veri careful so i wont slip n fall.

This period of time really strengthen up my left leg as i need to stand one legged frequently. Managed to go to Tampines Mall once or twice as i rented a wheelchair. Dun tink tat havin a wheelchair make things easier. Have to take the lifts and it always full. As my right leg is propped up, whoever is pushin e w/c gotta be good at avoidin the crowd.

Once i was eatin roti prata for breakfast, while clearin the gravy i accidentally spilled some onto my cast. Some of it went into the cast. Yucks! The next day had to go back to hospital and changed my cast. Havin a cast on is not a good thing, cant sratch wen u feel itchy and have to ensure tat u keep it dry. I had to spend $25 or $50 to buy a shoe which i can wear on my casted leg once i can weight bear on it. My colleagues signed on the cast and did some design as well.

After a month, finally had my cast removed. Was shocked to see how skinny my right foot was and it was quite weak. The skin was veri dark, dry and flakin away. Straight away i started doin physiotherapy to strenghten my right foot. Dr asked me to buy an ankle brace for my foot which caused me $75!! It look like a mid calf length boots. I started the trend of wearin a boot on one side and a sandle on the other. The scar on my right foot looks horrible so long and dark. Cant be bothered with appearance. My face is filled with freckles and a small scar on my left cheek, a scar on my left elbow from an accident wen i was in primary school and my knee caps are full of scars which i sustained in pri sch as well. As long as i can go back to exercisin, im happy enough.

After restin for 2 and a half month, i went back to work. I do feel pain over the scar esp i walk too much and stand too long, will have swellin at times as well. So far, im copin quite well and hopefully i can go back to exercisin this yr.

That’s all for today! Think i had typed too long a journal. Will update again soon… Take care ppl..

p.s attached some pics of my scar dun get freak out..

17/05/06 dr assessing the wound      

close up view

27/05/06 at the clinic               

14/01/07 now